I read this yesterday and realized I had to share it.
So many people have come and gone in my life, many left without anger or concern and that was fine. However some left because I let them go or I made a mistake and lost their friendship. Well, with that said, I realized after reading the post on the calendar, that I needed to forgive myself. I have been hard on myself and not letting myself grow because I felt I was not worthy. I started thinking about this a while ago, and just let it float away, not wanting to deal with it. Now is the time to step into the darkness and say "it's okay to make mistakes, just learn from it and move on". Putting this in writing has brought so much emotion to the forefront of my mind. It's taking me quite some time to write this, trying to read through my tears. I felt that I was not meant to have success, yet I am already successful. I stopped checking what I didn't have and noticed all the things that I did. It made so much more sense to me to see what I had accomplished. Not everything would be seen as major to anyone else, but they are to me. Seeing past the negative feelings I have been holding on to and hiding behind, I can now forgive myself for hurting others and forgive those who have hurt me. These people have gone on with their lives while I have been stuck in that moment of loss or pain. Today I let it all go, and you know what, it's an amazing feeling. Total freedom from fearing that the more success I have in my life will be wrong. I know to some people this makes no sense, but I had to write this Today, because I know there are people out there who feel like I do. I feel that this will be part of my journey, my mission to help others. Show them that they are worthy of all that they desire & that they do not need to feel bad if they accomplish their dreams. Today I no longer am the fearful person who worries that people will judge me for what I do, what I have or what I know. Today, Love is guiding me and I'm no longer afraid of success or failure as they are no longer my shackles. I have broken free!