We made the decision to come here, to live the life we chose, even while we are living it we may not remember that. Some have happy lives and others not, so why would we choose to be poor or abused? Maybe it's because we want to understand how it feels to live that life. If you have lived a life of wealth and happiness you have no idea what true suffering is. So when you go back to being one with the divine light of love, you may decide to come back and suffer. Everything that happens in this existence is meant to be, nothing is an accident, even if it feels that it is. Death is what makes us think about why we are here, am I living my life to it's full potential. Stop thinking about it and live it. If you are thinking that, then there is more that you can do. Be all that you are meant to be and not follow the crowd. Be You and follow your dreams. Stop being afraid of what others will say, jealousy is just fear, because they want to step out of the crowd and do something too, but are too afraid to do it. Notice when you become successful in what makes you happy how many people ask you what you did to make it happen. You may not know how it happened, you just followed you gut instinct and began to be You.
Don't be afraid of death as it is there to give you another chance to try again. Just as everyday that you awake is another day to take another step toward your goal. Just be and stop trying. As Yoda says "Do or don't do", this is where you will make the happiness happen. Namaste